I dated this guy for a couple of years and I thought he was “the one”. The one to put the ring on my finger, the one to sweep me off my feet and the one that I would be with until death do us part… at least that’s what I thought. Those were my plans. In the end, my life did not end in the fairytale romance, we broke up and my world of a twenty-year-old was shattered. Tragic, I know. But the problem was it was extremely tragic for me. My heart broke, I was angry and I felt literally lost. The person that I idolized left me, the person that I made a false god told me that I was not enough for him.
The ironic thing was that I was mad at God for ending it. I was blinded because I was so infatuated with the idea of romance that is prevalent in our society. If you are in one of those romances I hope it works out for you, it just hasn’t worked out for me. So what do you do when God says no? This isn’t step by step guide or “how to,” but just what I’ve learned in the last year.
When God says no, it’s hard to accept, at least it was for me, because what I have found is that it doesn’t line with my plan. He was supposed to say yes so I could get that job, be with that person, or have it correspond with my plans for my life; the problem is our plans are never our plans and our lives are not our own. Jeremiah 29:11 says-“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.” As a college student at Iowa State University, and heartbroken one, this verse was something that I leaned on for comfort but also something that terrified me.
If we break this verse into two parts, we see that God knows the plans that he has for us. He knows. Plain and simple. The Lord of the universe is not limited by time or space. He has already been to the past, present and the future, so why does that stir anxiety in me? Is it doubt? Is it lack of faith? Or is it because I may hold God to a faulted human standard, when God surpasses all human standards. A human standard that has failed me time and time again, when the Bible clearly states that love never fails. God is love and He will never fail. God loved us so much that He gave His only son to die for us (John 3:16), and if there was one person on this earth He would have done the same thing.
He wants the reconciliation, He wants us to feel His love and He wants to trust in Him because he is good and He does things for our good. He assures us that he his plans are to give us hope and a future. It might feel like the world is ending and your heart is breaking, but feelings are fickle and it was not a feeling that kept Jesus on the Cross.